I was reading a couple articles in my daily devotional, Journey, and one of them (A Gentle Heart) was about a lady who, like many, struggled to get along with her daughters. This lady had dealt with years of resentment for missing many of life experiences her friends had been able to enjoy, like college life.
It really made me think of where I am. I've wondered so many times, including today, if I am wrong to want a husband since I am very blessed, have a best friend who very much so lives up to the title, and my financial situation allows me to go to school without having to work and enjoy my summer vacation! I'm 36 years old, and only a few years ago did I even think of giving college the time of day. However, I served in the United States Air Force for 6 years and, without the horror of combat, saw parts of the world that the tourists usually miss. I also had the opportunity to take acting classes at John Casablancas and Excel Model and Talent. So as to help a friend scratch off a place from her "bucket list" I took the time to visit Graceland. When I moved back to my home state, I went skydiving for the first time with some fellow college students and discovered a new vision shortly afterward. I am now hoping to study abroad in Australia!
What it comes down to is that although I really want a hand to hold at the end of the day, now if I do settle down and raise a family, I don't think I'll feel like I've missed something. I won't feel like I've missed out on life. Hopefully, if when I have my own children or even step or adopted children, I'll make for a better mother for it because I'll better be able to empathize with their hopes and dreams. I'll watch his football playing or her cheerleading as a roaring fan. I'll know what it's like to dream... and to have that dream come true.
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